its my birthday today. i usually take some time to reflect over the past years events and my goals for the next one. i can't believe how important this birthday will be for me. my first birthday as a mother, as a yale graduate, as a woman with complete and utter happiness. today is my birthday, but i bought my daughter this really awesome gift. i hope she likes it one day when she's old enough.
thats the thing about motherhood. if it had been last year, i would have made some frivolous purchase for myself...and now, i don't want or need a thing at all! i have everything i could ever want.
its a rocking horse by disguincio from italy. it really is the coolest thing i've ever seen! i can't wait to give it to her.
i have neglected you, dear, public, very public- blog. well, for good reason. i am busy completing my thesis for graduate school. this song and this post allows me a moment to reflect. i began this blog during my 2nd semester of my 1st year at Yale. i wanted it to be a diary of some sorts to keep friends and family posted on what was going on or what the hell i was thinking all those times i would sequester myself in my studio for weeks on end. i failed to return calls, neglected my long distance boyfriend, my friends, my family back home- ultimately, worrying and pissing off quite a few close people- but, i was focused...and isn't that what they wanted from me? i made a commitment to do something for myself that i had deeply wanted to do for some time. i always knew that after undergrad i would return for my graduate degree-and when the time came in 2008, i had the fullest intentions to do it right. somehow i was forgiven, even when at the time, all seemed lost between some relationships, sometimes even those that were the most precious to me. i found myself, i figured out balance for the first time in my life. how to be a better person - how to enjoy life just a little bit more. i am standing now realizing this very, cosmic thing and as my thesis due date rapidly approaches, i can not help to overview my emotions and memories of these past three years upon entering Yale-and what the future holds after.
in may 2011, i will graduate from yale university with my masters degree and while that thrills me more than i can describe, in june 2011 i will be a mother too. josh & i will welcome our first child. so, you see, this really is an amazing three years- i really have grown. i truly have the most precious and incredible life that anyone can ask for and i can't wait to keep going. here's to 2011 & beyond, to my truest partner & friend, josh, what haven't we conquered.... to my future daughter, i will love you everyday, every hour, every minute- i can not wait to meet you and tell you in person just how amazing you are & how lucky you make me feel to be your mother.
thanks for reading all these years, many of you i know personally and some of you, have found me along the way, which is awesome! look out in 2011 for some new exciting projects i have in the works that will involve children..hey, why not? i will be qualified by then ;) a new blog updated costume website career mobility & even a big move to a new city for me, josh & the baby love!!!
